Nostalgia

I'm a pretty nostalgic person. I've always fallen into the category of people who tend to drift back into thinking about 'how things used to be' and looking at old photographs or reading through past conversations. Those of you who have followed my blog regularly over the past five years or so will probably know that letting go is something I often struggle with - which is increasingly evident through the amount of posts I've written about time, change and loss. I suppose it was part of the reason why I started this blog in the first place: to help myself and to a certain extent it has.

I've learnt that loss is not only restricted to people passing away, but is also applicable to losing touch with people, people changing drastically over time and the break down of any kind of relationship. But consequently, over the past few years I've tried my very best to make the most of the current moment and to appreciate all the important people in my life more. I suppose you could say that I've come to accept change. But that doesn't mean I'm any more prepared for when unexpected things happen, I've just learnt to deal with it better and approach it with a more positive mindset. I don't let it drag me down as much.

I still frequently miss people that I used to be close with and speak to a lot. I still sometimes contemplate what would have happened if things had turned out differently. Although my nostalgic ways will always be a part of who I am, I don't let it completely define my life anymore. Plus, the people that do stick around make other changes in life a lot easier to deal with. I think that letting people into your life is worth the possible risk of losing them in the future, and is massively outweighed by the positive aspects of close friendships and the privilege of being part of their lives too.

In all honesty, I still don't have any amazing, invaluable advice that will benefit everyone who reads this post because it's a personal thing - my blog posts always has been. But what I do know is that letting go of the past doesn't necessarily mean forgetting about it, and I think that's something important to remember if nothing else. 

The way I look at it, the past has helped shape me and although I still remain a nostalgic person it no longer holds me back, I've learnt to keep moving forwards (even if that does include occasionally looking back too!)

Laura.

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