The last day of year eleven.

Well we all knew this day would come sooner or later, and I'm not going to ramble on too much - I'll try and keep this short.

At first glance this day seems like the end, but really you could say it's the just the beginning. There has been so many memories during the past three years and so many friendships along the way too. Even though we all expected one more day to come to terms with the reality of leaving year eleven; perhaps it was best to leave with something unexpected. We left as we came, together and unknowing of what is to come. I wish everybody the best of luck with whatever they are going on to do in the future! I hope you stay in contact with everybody you want to, and if worst comes to worst, there's always facebook chat. That's amazingness of the Internet for you...

Laura.


Song: Good Life by OneRepublic

Losing.

Sometimes losing people in your life is necessary, but sometimes you have to do everything you possibly can to prevent it happening. You just have to decide which one it is... ''I'm just scared of losing all that we have left.''

Laura.

Song: Panic Chord by Gabrielle Aplin

The Rapture!

Surprisingly, everybody survived the rapture and are still alive. Shocking! But it made me think... Even the concept of death was enough for some people to say sorry to friends they'd argued with and had held grudges against or do certain things like that. Surely we should do this without the threat of death? I think Nickelback's song explains what I'm trying to say quite well, I've linked it below. Congratulations to everybody who is still living!

Laura.

Song: If today was your last day by Nickelback

The whole picture...

Sometimes you need to see the whole picture to understand things, not just a small part of them. When you can only see a part of it, you can't see the truth; the reality. You try and make the part you have fit in with what you want to be true - not what's actually there. When you have the whole picture you can see what's real and what's not, what matters and what doesn't. This can be related to so many situations and it all comes down to piecing together the small parts to create bigger picture.

Laura.

Song: Starlight by Muse

Fear?

Well I'm one of those people who isn't scared of the 'normal' things like the dark or spiders. When I was younger I was terrified of lifts because someone on the program Fireman Sam got stuck in one... And to be quite honest I'm still not a big fan of them. I'd rather walk the stairs than go in one if possible. I have other things I dislike a lot, such as other people dying and so on but there's nothing else I particularly 'fear'. I think fears are strange things, they are all based on possibilities and what could happen. Maybe it's just because we like to be in full control of our own lives and sometimes we can't control every little thing? Life can be an uncertain thing. So yes. This was a pretty pointless post... let me know your fears in the comments if you feel the urge? Haha, hope all your exams are going okay too!

Laura.

Song: 20 Miles by Deer Tick

The Exam.

The last minute revision lining up. The sick feeling you get that rises up inside you. The realisation of what you're about to do. The final steps you take to the seat. The scrapping of chairs and shuffling of papers. The murmur of the last few voices. The orders. The silence that drifts away as thinking takes over. The time that passes. The relief. The waiting to leave. The eruption of chatter afterwards. The sharing of answers and discussion of questions. The ones who feel they have done well, the ones who feel all is lost. The feeling that it's one more off the list.

It's just another day of exams.

Laura.

Song: Unfriend You by Greyson Chance

Existing.

So today, when I probably should have been revising, I caught up on the videos that have been slowly gathering in my YouTube subscribers box over the past week. One video particularly caught my eye and I'll link you to it below. I think the video shows how things and people come and go but they never completely vanish, somehow and somewhere parts of them remain; it may be in the form of old memories or even physical pieces but it's still there - existing. Ruin can signify the life that previously existed there, aswell as the absence of it at present.

Laura.

Video: 'The Accidental Sea'

Set fire to the rain.

"Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say they were never true, never true. And the games you'd play you would always win, always win."

Really, really love Adele's album 21 at the moment.

Laura.

Song: Go pick one of Adele's? Let me know if you likey.

Own advice...

It's strange how people can never take their own advice. It's almost like we need other people to tell us what to do in our own lives. Maybe it's just because we need somebody to tell us that we aren't a massive failure, that we should keep on going and that things will get better. 'Cause we all know it's hard to motivate yourself when you're not at your best. No matter how hard I try to take my own advice I never get that far, but at least I try?

Laura.

Song: Bar on A by Greg Holden

Happy endings.

I guess I always hope for happy endings.
What do I mean by 'happy endings'? Well, I've come to realise that I hope that in the end - everything will turn out okay. But by 'end' I don't mean the end of the world, the end of my life, the end of anything in particular just normal things like relationships or generally any experiences we go through. Obviously not everything goes right and there's usually a tough journey to get to the end. However when things do come to the ending I just hope that I'll get something from the whole thing even if it is learning something important from a bad experience. I've found that sometimes the worst times can turn out to be the best, in terms of learning lessons anyway. Perhaps it's stupid of me to wish for happy endings but I don't want the fairytale endings... just ones that help me be who I want to be. We rely on other people a lot as they make up our whole lives pretty much. Whatever you lose just remember there's always more to gain...

Laura.

Song: Rumour Has It by Adele

Opportunities.

I've let opportunities pass me by many a time. Generally it's because I ask too many questions and probably think too much into most things. I think that i'll make a fool out of myself or say something stupid; most of the time I usually go for the safer option - the one that won't make me look like an idiot. Having said that, it's not always the easiest of choices. Taking the safer option can mean having the most to lose. Sometimes I think I could have said or done something differently. Perhaps I just worry too much about what other people think of me, but doesn't everyone? Basically I reckon whatever choices you make and whatever opportunities you take - you'll make the right decision for you and that's the important thing... From now on I think I'll push myself a bit more, who knows where it might lead me.

Laura.

Song: A Little Irony by Tom Milsom

"Time should stop moving...

...and never go on behond today."

There's always going to be moments when you wish you could stop time or freeze a particular moment and save it as a photo in your brain because as you get older and things move on, you forget the things you once thought you'd remember forever. You won't forget them because they are insignificant or unimportant just because time erases memories. Some people say I take too many photos but they are one of the only ways you can keep the moments safe away from the grasps of time.

Laura.

Song: Rubik's Cube by Athlete

Writing stuff...

So most of you know that this year I've been doing some writing for 'Etoilee Magazine' by Jodie Andrews. Thought instead of spamming Facebook I'd post the links here from now on! Have a look if you want.

Issue One here.
Issue Two here.
Issue Three here.

You can also check out Jodie's photography Facebook page here.

Laura.

Song: Set Fire To The Rain by Adele