We are the stuff of which winners are made...

I couldn't cope with it , it was too graphic reminder of all the things I'd never have. There was the feeling that I ought to do something about it. But I could not yet become the wounded person. This is my choice, nobody elses. I've got to open myself to new experiences. While the heart beats, bruise it - it is your only opportunity. We are the stuff of which winners are made.

Seven books of your choice, seven different pages, one sentence randomly picked from each page. Give it ago?

Laura.

Song: Give Me a Sign by Breaking Benjamin

Books

Ever since I was younger I've always read a lot of books, nerdy? Perhaps. But it's something to do instead of being online all the time, and some of the best concepts can come from fiction. More recently I've been trying to read books I wouldn't usually pick up. My typical book is basically an easy read based on family, friends and usually relationships... So I've been reading a wider range. And as I'm planning on taking English Literature at alevel, it's probably a good idea to start now. My nan in particular reads a lot, especially cultural books or books with a historical background so I've been reading some of her books too. The main thing I try and pick up from reading is the vocab because that's my weakest area in English. Anyway, I'm going to recommend some of my favourite books let me know if you've read any of them are others you've liked! Some of these have bad points about them but the quality of the the writing is pretty good in all of them... Before I Die by Jenny Downham, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time by Mark Haddon, A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseni, A Gathering Light by Jennifer Donnelly, The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins, Tamar by Mal Peet, Noughts and Crosses by Malorie Blackman Also the Harry Potter series and John Greens books (I'm still reading JG's) I've probably missed some out but these are the ones that came into my head first. I've read a lot of easy reads including most of my mums ones haha, I also read every single Jacqueline Wilson book that came out when I was younger I have a lot of her hardback copies. I was a true fan lol! I also have been reading more articles recently in newspapers and magazines - hopefully it will help me with my English language exam coming up.

Laura.

Song: Thinking Of Me by Olly Murs

Eeeeep.

Happy Days.

Firstly it was sunny and warm today. I love it so much, not having to wear a coat just makes my day -can't wait until all my exams are over and it's the summer holidays I have a lot of plans already. Plus my history controlled assessment went pretty well which is always a good thing. There were no arguments today, no awkward moments, and trust me it's been a long time since there's been a day like that. I spoke to some of my favourite people and none of them were down. And lastly I'm seeing nevershoutnever! tomorrow. What more can I say.

Laura.

Treat yourself to a song of your choice, preferable one that makes you happy.
Tell me it in the comments! :')

Brain. Mind. Dream.

We all dream every night.
But ask people how often they dream during a week and most will probably give the reply 'once or twice'. I myself hardly ever remember what I dreamt about, or even that I did actually dream a particular night. It's strange that something so powerful can easily slip our minds. So maybe it's not just our dreams that vanish from our minds... We would never know, after all we don't remember the content of them or that it actually happened so it could be possible. People interpret their dreams searching for meaning and purpose but when you think about it you'll fine that often, things you saw the previous day link together in some strange way to create your dream. But that brings me onto another thing. Do you dream in pictures? Do you dream in words? I don't think I do either of these... I think my dreams. That might sound obvious but it's true. When I shut my eyes I don't see clear images or words - I just think. Our minds are such complex things I can only hope one day I'll understand...

Laura.

Song: Kiss the Rain by Thriving Ivory
"Whenever you need me, kiss the rain, whenever I'm gone too long."

Lessons learnt.

"Seeing in deceiving, dreaming is believing, it's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing, every body's bruising, just be true to who you are."

I have definitely got to know who my true friends are over the past year or so, I used to strive to please everyone, but it simply isn't possible - I know that now. Some people will stick by you and continue to make you laugh even on your darkest days, others will drag you down with them and never change their ways... I'm so very thankful to have the friends I have. Even if everything else was taken away from me, I would still have them standing right there beside me. But however much I dislike people I know what it's like to be excluded, to have no friends to rely on and I couldn't do that to someone. You can feel so alone even when surrounded by so many people.

Laura.

Song: Who You Are by Jessie J

Just A Dream

"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you it doesn't love you anymore."
- Lady Gaga

'Open my eyes, it was only just a dream...'

Laura.

Song: The Cave by Mumford and Sons

Why?

Yesterday I was sitting in maths, the one lesson I've always disliked, even in lower school when everyone knew their eight and nine times tables off by heart when I could only just about do the simple fives and tens and we were doing direct and inverse proportion. And suddenly I realised that you don't need to understand why 'K' is the constant or what 'K' even is. You just need to know the all the methods and apply them. It's the same with all maths, forget trying to understand why pi exists, why we have to find the value of 'x' or what cosine actually is. We've been brought up to ask 'why' and I think sometimes in life we have to accept things for what they are rather than questioning them constantly.

Laura.

Song: Call Me by Shinedown

Exam Results

Core science - A
Additional science - A
History - A*

HELL YEAH.
My endless hours of revision paid off, thank god. No resits for me.
-Happy dance.

Laura.

Song: Just Another Boyband by The Midnight Beast